sometimes I can feel so distant from everyone and everything. it's quite a contradiction actually because I'm always surrounded by people. like even when I want a break I'm surrounded. and when I'm with people I can't help but get this overall feeling that no one I know gets it. it's so worrisome. then I have friends whom when I met them were perfectly okay 'cause I was in a shit place in my life too but now? nah. I'm okay and I don't need friends whose only interest is in wallowing in their despair. it gets old and annoying. I also have no interest in friends who, because they hate themselves so much, can only point out the flaws and annoyances of others. it's so annoying (how ironic). so annoying. hard to ditch a friend once you've made them though. at any rate still I wait for the person who will sweep into my life and be good for me.
I realize I say I don't wanna wait but it's all I've been doing anyways. how do we pass the time in the meantime though? sit around waiting and moping? because essentially that's what I've been reduced to because I refuse to become desperate and accept anything. smh. oh well.
&& I'm out.
-- lexy.
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Feel free but please don't intentionally try to hurt me. - Lexy. ( I just like the line, say what you want, you don't even know me).