In high school I remember constantly talking about getting a fresh start and beginning anew as if going to college was synonymous with a blank slate or fresh start but just as I feared it was not. I fell into the trap of acting like me instead of carving a new being, becoming a blank slate where no one knew me. Ugh. I missed my chance and now I've got to deal with what I've got until I get the chance again. And no one of this is to say I haven't liked the people I met or made new friends its just to say that I'm overall disappointed with the way I've handled the recreation of me.
Unlike this picture where the sun is peeking through I failed to begin anew.
I mean I even stayed the same so much that I even let myself fall into that trap of liking someone that will never feel the same about me, something I promised I wouldn't do... It's fucking annoying. Yuck. And this is me being me.
And I guess I'm stuck with it.
&& I'm done.
-- lexy.
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Feel free but please don't intentionally try to hurt me. - Lexy. ( I just like the line, say what you want, you don't even know me).