Oh My God, You Can't Breathe? I'm SO Sorry

I've had trouble sitting down to write this blog for quite a few days now. I can't get the words to come to me... more like the title. I don't like writing things and giving them whack ass titles. I'd rather leave them untitled before I do that.

Not the point though.

I've been thinking and I noticed that I'm super clingy when it comes to my friends.

I'm a 'loaner' in most aspects but then again I'm not.... honestly I'm everything and it's contradiction but that's another blog altogether. Anyways I cling to my friends and I have super high expectations of them even though I know that honestly they have no real ties to me outside of the ones they create. I expect these really high rates of communication and to hang out with me frequently and it's really bad. I have to remind myself that my friends are simply friends and nothing more. I have to say I'm sorry if I'm ever too much to bear but it's in my nature. I've never had many friends and the ones I do have I would really love to keep and not lose contact with (which is another flaw of mine: hating change but that too is another topic). Sometimes I question if it's truly a negative thing though because I feel like friends should value each other and what not but maybe that too is another high expectation. I don't know, maybe my standards are too high and maybe I've got my shit all twisted. It's real hard for me sometimes to read people's expectations.

But before I start rambling the main purpose is to say I'm sorry in advance to my friends if I'm ever too clingy or I begin to suffocate you because it's in my nature and I don't mean to ['cause we all know clinginess is 'unattractive' (for a lack of a better word)].

&& I'm out.

-- lexy.