Hope You Didn't Think You Knew All There was to Know About Sexuality

I believe that sexuality is fluid and I believe the Kinsey report. meaning that I believe that there are only a few exclusively heterosexual or homosexual people in the world. I will always hold fast to that belief and believe because this is true people should lose the hostility towards people of sexualities over than heterosexuality and they should do it quick. I’m not saying that you have to participate I’m just saying people should stop judging others. Thing is I realize a lot of this stems from religion 

and the other spiritual beliefs people hold fast to but sometimes you just gotta accept the facts and when read and analyzed the facts show that sexuality is fluid. and I really don’t care how many friends I lose by writing this blog because honestly if you were a friend it wouldn’t matter. anyways I also believe that because sexuality fluid it is okay for ones sexuality to change over time. I have to also say that you cannot help what you are turned on or attracted to because if that was the case people would choose to be the dominant sexuality (heterosexuality) simply because it is accepted and not frowned upon in society. with that said I firmly believe that your sexual orientation Is not a choice. If others believe that then I’d like to ask why they chose to be heterosexual (because let’s face it the majority of the people doing the judging is hetero, Christian [and other religious] people. since heteros make everyone who is different feel like they’re social outcasts they usually end going through life unfulfilled and unhappy because they’re trying to conform to the social norm and that’s not fair. I know it takes a long time for people to accept their sexuality but they should do it as soon as possible because it will lead to a much more satisfying life experience. don’t let the ignorant assholes keep you from doing what you feel to be right.

&& I’m out.

-- lexy. 

Standing for Something

my convictions are my convictions.
don't try and change me because you don't agree.
here is where I post them in order to express them because in everyday life I don't always get that chance.
so still feel free to comment or whatever but don't come here trying to judge or bash me.

&& I'm out.
-- lexy.

Realities

there are two very important people in my life who both keep trying to convince me of the exact same thing which I refuse to believe.

Who they are is no matter but what they do is.

Forcing your beliefs of someone else is not very democratic especially when what you’re trying to force on me simply is not the truth.

Plainly put these people keep trying to convince me that everyone reality is the same when obviously this is not true.

Everyone’s situations are different and may greatly vary from one individual to the next.

It’s not very fair that they do this to me either, they feel that because they are in positions of authority they can force me into that position but they are very mistaken. I feel as though it’s important for them to know that by me not believing that bullshit that they’re telling me I’m proving my exact point. My reality is different.

She is stuck in the past still thinking that every Caucasian person is out to get you and that they hate black people or hold some innate belief that they’re better when this simply isn’t true. She also believes that black folk are incapable of holding a position of power and to some extent I believe that she believes they shouldn’t be given the chance. She also has an instense hatred of homosexuals and even participated in the outcasting of a close family member when they became involved with someone of the same sex. As I’ve reminded her time and time again, just because you practice and believe these things doesn’t mean they’re true. Her response is “you just keep on livin’ honey.” I always walk away feeling as though nothing’s been accomplished but I know that deep within every time I don’t idly sit by and let her rant I’ve accomplished something. I’vw fought a small fight which proves that my reality is different from hers.

He (the other individual) tries very hard to convince me that because I can argue a certain point of view or be understanding (despite how twisted the story may be) it means I believe that point of view. WRONG! It’s very similar to how an attorney can defend someone they may know to be guilty not only because it’s their duty but because they want them to get a fair shake. Plain and simple. Now I know life ain’t fair but I believe in trying to make it as fair as possible and the only way we can do that is through understanding. So once again my reality is different from yours, simply because I can be understanding and non-convicting despite how evil someone (or the situation) is. After all we’re only human.

I think that’s enough said.

&& I’m out.

-- lexy. 

About This New Year of 2010...

let me jus say I ain’t gonna talk about it, imma be about it. so they’ll be no post of resolutions and shit. I’m just going to be me.

let’s start this decade off right. =]

And I Bet You Never Would Have Guessed Paranoia Was Narcissism as an Undercover Agent

As I’ve previously written about, paranoia is something that afflicts me daily and I began to wonder about the complexity of the issue. Although paranoia is a serious matter, one of self-consciousness, isn’t it also possibly one of conceit or narcissism? Think about it, paranoia consists of the individual frequently having thoughts that people are occupied with discussing them and talking about them as they enter and move about the room. (At least that’s the kind of paranoia that plagues me) While the thoughts and words these people may be having are negative in nature the fact remains that people are talking about the said individual. Now isn’t that a little be narcissistic of the individual to think that people actually have time to sit around and talk about the clothes they have on or the spot on their teeth (disregard the fact that people actually do do this quite frequently)? The answer is yes regardless as to how much of a disease and matter of poor self-image paranoia may result from. Which bring me to the ultimate point, that makes me secretly narcissistic and I don’t like the thought of that at all because I’m honestly not that concerned with myself and only myself. I absolutely love caring for other people and this worries me. I don’t want anyone thinking I’m narcissistic and the funny thing is that by writing this I’m being paranoid about being narcissistic which proves my point double. –sigh- why is shit so complicated? 

&& I’m out.

- - lexy. 

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If your house was on fire and you could only grab three things, what would they be?

my computer.
my camera.
my iPod.

What was the happiest moment in your life?

when I graduated from high school.
I hated my high school.

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How the Time Flies

I’ve been absent for over a month with no good reason except that I’d been absent from my life all together over the last month of school right up until break. Only things I honestly had time for was being a robot that went to class, endured, went to work, and came home to do daily chores and tasks. It’s not really something I’m glad I let happen because you should never leave your life but I have a tendency of doing. At any rate I’m just glad I finished semester one and that I have time to write again. I’m really glad. I didn’t mean to neglect my writing it just took a backseat as it always does but shouldn’t. I ain’t making any promises but I’m going to try to stay in action with better time management and what not. =] 
&& I'm out
-- Lexy.