late night chit chat

I'm sitting here lying in my bed on the iPad and I can't get the "bluest eye in texas" out of my head. I think it's because I never did finish watching boys don't cry. at any rate I'm also listening to this ambient music and as I was on my tumblr I saw a post by my cousin whom I haven't spoken to in ages nor have I been particulary close too. however, her Facebook profile says she's in an open relationship with another girl and I always wanted to know if it was true. if it is that would be super awesome because to know I have a feminine, successful, queer relatively close family member would be amazing for some reason. I have no idea why but it would. I guess visibility really does matter because I mean it'd be someone to look up to close to me rather than distant celebraties. I may never know but until that day I'll continue hoping she is and secretly admiring her boldness cause personally I have a familial fb and personal fb. the former rarely gets checked and I'm currently at the stage where I no longer care but still it exists. she's awesome is the bottom line. and I honestly hope that maybe one day I'll be able to tell her she affected me positively or maybe she'll even read this and know. at any rate I'm appreciative and it helped me along in the self-acceptance process.

&& that's all folks.
-- lexy.